~Italktosquirrels

Sorry I haven't updated this in a long time....to much drama....let me explain.


This Halloween was supposed to be the greatest it was really my first halloween that I went out to a bar and dressed up. But at 10 o'clock I was hit with the worst news ever.....one of my best friends killed himself......I've never had to deal with anything like this. I'm not sure how I should feel right now I'm so sad but at the same time so angry. I know it's never going to get better but, I've been told it will get easier. I'm hoping so.......

I'm just kindda lost.....

I really don't know what else to say...the funeral was yesterday. Everything was made so real to me that day. I kept thinking it was all just some fucked up dream or even a joke but when I saw him Sunday at the service in his coffen I just lost it and I knew it was real and then seeing his grave and grave stone it was so hard....what do I do? I know there is nothing that can be done and that all of us who lost him just need to be together but.....it's so strange like some sureal dream.

Anyway I guess I feel a little better typing it all out and geting my thought out. Now I just need to try and sleep.....that sounds good...maybe...if I can. We will see how well this works out.


Later!